immobilized
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Written by philip 24. Jan 2008 02:21 PM
my refusal to suffer boredom, low level back/musclar pain, lonliness, being broke, fat, old, rejection, a hangover, the hot weather38, my ugly, tired looking boarding house room, the tennis, Oprah, numbness in my hands led me to buying some beer for a respite. i know its short term and wont change a damn thing except hasten my demise but its all about now now now! that perception gained from feeling hunted all my life. why? having my boundaries invaded by very disturbed people. powerful at the time and ruthless in their exercising of it. now they are a quaint old couple that live by the sea. i can see now that i'm to take action in regards to all of the above if i'm not sink any further into paralysis so resolve to go to an AA meeting tomorrow. westfield wa 10.30am. I forgot to buy the paper!!!! keen on the stars, or were but now indifferant, maybe thats a good thing. I predict I will go to a meeting on friday. And you will be my friend. cya