i wish i could say i want to live
A page in the diary "to give my feelings a voice"
Written by northrnbelle 9. Mar 2008 08:09 AM
that's pretty much how i feel - i wish i could say i really want to live, but about the best i can get to lately is not actively wanting to die... i finally told my sister about having depression. she took the information fairly well, but was pretty neutral in regard to offering support - she said i could call her if i wanted to, but 'there wasn't much she could do from where she is'... about what i expected. i saw the psychiatrist at the end of Feb... he stopped the wellbutrin and added remeron to the zoloft. i think i might be starting to improve - i'm not thinking about hurting myself (or worse) as much as i was before, but i've really had a hard time staying awake some days. i go back to see him on the 12th, so guess i can stick with it until then.
not much else is going on here - it is still cold and snowy, but it may get warm enough to start melting in a couple of days... i sure hope so - even people who aren't depressed have been complaining about how long this winter is lasting!
i'm sorry i've been so out of touch lately - either i've had no time / energy to post anything, or when i actually have tried to get on the site my connection hasn't worked... just not much luck for anything these days.
take care all,
Barbara2