Read diary

someone to talk to???

A page in the diary "to give my feelings a voice"
Written by northrnbelle 18. Jan 2008 08:31 AM

i hope i can find the words to express what i am feeling... tensions seem to be rising on the site again, and i don't have anyone else to talk to right now. a few people know that things are not great for me right now (what an understatement!!!), but i can't really be honest with them. mostly because when i've tried to reach out they've either let me down or haven't been there, but also because i think if i was really honest with them i would either:

a) scare them off

b) they would think i'm just being melodramatic

or

c) they might want to lock me up somewhere

if i ever get done work early enough, i'm thinking about checking out the local mental health association and see if there are some supports there... of course, i've been thinking about that for over a year now and haven't been able to get up the nerve. phoning is even worse for me for some reason - i've never really done well with the phone - i freeze up and can't even speak, and people on the other end can't tell what's happening.

i did submit a question to the letterbox, but i think i forgot to include some of the information i was going to give... i guess i'll just have to wait and see

hanging in here for now,
northrnbelle

« Prev page | Next page »

Comments from the community:

Northrnbelle,

I just looked at your profile and see that you are in Winnipeg. How exciting to have someone in the same time zone out here!!

I've found that those who have not suffered from depression can't possibly understand what we are experiencing and find it difficult to support us. I don't know what options are available to you up there, but I encourage you to seek out whatever help is available. Make time for contacting the mental health association. It won't take much of your time to give them a call, so make a commitment to yourself and do it. I know what you mean about making phone calls--for some reason I used to find calling strangers on the phone intimidating. I think it is part of the depression. If phoning is not an option, do they have a web site with contact information? Perhaps you can send an email and initiate some help that way.

Whatever you do please find a way to get help. It can make a huge improvement in your life.

HD

Written by hounddog, 18. Jan 2008 08:44 AM

Northrnbelle

You can talk to me. I will help and support you as best as I can.

Go Northrnbelle!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 18. Jan 2008 05:08 PM

It does take time and courage to work yourself up to taking the steps - but I assure you, that contacting the local mental health assocn will be a step forward. I agree with everything HD has written in this regard.

Also - hopefully writing on here will help you. I joined just over a year ago (under a different name than the one I use now) and the writing that I have done on here has helped me immensely - and the sharing and support.

Please remember that although dep can make us feel very alone - there are lots of people out there who are also struggling with dep - so you are not as alone or alienated as you think you are.

Sending you love and support,

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 18. Jan 2008 09:44 PM

About depression	Help with depression	Help for relatives	Society	DepNet Community	My Depression