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Written by hellhole 3. Feb 2008 09:47 PM

Am i a hypocrite? I try to respond to as many peoples posts as i can, when i have the time to be online, & can usually give advice which i hope is the right thing & helpful, but yet i cant seem to fix my own problems & sort my life out. I can encourage others & ensure them there life is worth it & ways to cope but dont believe that myself & can apply for my life. The same goes in real life, i am always there for others to help them even the jerks which dont deserve it and treated me badly in the past, but am clueless at fixing my own problems. When im in a bad way i wana do the things that i tell them not to do. I hate myself. I have given up. Ive resigned the fact that i may ever be happy, have loyal caring friends, be loved, normal, successful etc etc. I get it now, its never going to happen for someone like me. I'll just put one foot in front of the other & keep going till the black hole beneath me finally swollows me up & puts me & everyone thats had any contact with me out of misery.

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Hellhole

I think you would find a majority of deppies in here are in the same situation - can't practise what they say to another deppie in their situation. I know it is the case for me sometimes - I can give the advise and know what I should do but alas it doesn't get done at all. It just means you need help from your treatment team on how to help yourself more. Keep answering diaries as all answers are appreciated.

Go Hellhole!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 4. Feb 2008 04:11 AM

Hellhole,

You sound so much like me. I can help others, but my problem is I don't want others to help me, as I think I can handle it. Plus I don't want people to know I'm failing. You have friends here, but just dont realise it. The Deppies are a great bunch of people and all you have to do is reach out and one of them,us, will help you.Be a devil and take a chance on the Deppies, you'll be glad you did. If I can help,make contact and we will go from there.
Head up and remember the Deppies are on your side.

Les

Written by Deleted_User, 4. Feb 2008 08:10 AM

Hey, I think you are right about your responses to diary entries, they are very encouraging and supportive, sometimes I think we get so tied up in our own problems that it is hard to think objectively about what to do. Don't give up on yourself so easily, try to challenge your negative thinking and reverse it to a positive, start encouraging yourself like you encourage others, be your own cheerleader, take care HH, my thoughts are with you, From Riles

Written by riles, 4. Feb 2008 01:51 PM

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