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Hellhole

It is hard for a single person to deal with depression but to be pregnant and have a toddler it must be so many times harder. Have you a counsellor you talk to or your gp - go and see them and tell them what you are feeling and hopefully they can sort out the meds.

Go Hellhole!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 19. Jan 2008 10:41 PM

Don't be so hard on yourself.
It's hard enough to be a parent as it is, I guess, but to have this illness as well must be a million times worse for you.
There is help out there for you - please go see your GP or a counsellor. And no you are not a sook! We all spend our time crying and thinking we are worthless, but we ARE WORTH SOMETHING! Try to believe that.
Cheyne

Written by hippiechick, 20. Jan 2008 01:55 AM

...."the pain is too deep to fix it. They allow me to function better, but not necessarily feel any better."

i read that and felt like you could be talking about me... you are not alone... i know you're in a tough spot regarding meds because of the pregnancy, but please try to find some way to remind yourself that you are special, that your kids do want you around, and that no-one can offer them the same love that you can!

and hearing each others problems is what we're here for, otherwise what would be the point - so whinge all you want

Take care,
northrnbelle

Written by northrnbelle, 20. Jan 2008 06:03 AM

Dear Hellhole

You are not a useless mother, so get those thoughts out of your head right now. "What the hell is wrong with me?" you ask. Well you are suffering from depression, you are a single parent, pregnant and trying to deal with this all alone. Being a parent is hard enough when you have support, but being a single parent on your own is even harder. Try not to be so hard on yourself. From what I have read here you are a wonderful mother, concerned about your children. If you were a useless mum, you wouldn't give a damn, but it's quite obvious that you do.

Trust me Hellhole, your kids would definitely not be better off without you. You are their mum and no-one, absolutely no-one else in this world could ever take your place and give them the love that you can.
As for their fathers not wanting anything to do with them, well that is the fathers loss missing out on two gorgeous children.

Is their a support group near you Hellhole where you could go and talk with other single mums. If you have a local Health Centre, they often run support and help groups.

You are not a whinger. We all have problems we need to discuss and sort out. Hang in there and once bub is born perhaps your GP can put you on some different meds to help you along.

Love hugs and support
from Shadowdancer xxx

Written by Shadowdancer, 20. Jan 2008 10:58 AM

hi hellhole..
I have read a few of your posts. I fully and totally understand how you feel. Im Bipolar and Borderline too..
I guess we would have alot in common. Im trying to work on getting my life back in order too..it seems like such a mess, and feels like it will never end. Keep hanging in there though..we have to keep working at it, because there has to be something out there that is better than this living hell..
Im with you,
Kato xo

Written by kato, 20. Jan 2008 12:48 PM

Hi there darl,

You are doing it really tough atm....If it's any consulation I had the same thoughts when I was Pregnant last year Darl. Then I had Bubs and I went and got help from a womens health centre. There should be a few listed in the phonebook Darl....

Maybe ring them and ask for support. They have support groups and counsellors and its free. They also have a creche for your Toddler too, while you attend.

I hope this info is helpful to you Darl.

Love friendship and support :)

(((((hugs)))))

Written by cherry1, 20. Jan 2008 12:57 PM

i am 17 weeks pregnant also

Written by Deleted_User, 20. Jan 2008 05:15 PM