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Written by hellhole 1. Nov 2008 06:38 PM
For once things r starting to look up for me but i wonder if it'll last. my A.D. are making me feel a bit more level unlike my usual rollercoaster. Im looking into getting a loan to buy my own house with the help of my folks. this means i can get some of my independence back, although my mum will probably still be there a lot & call when shes not. She doesnt think i can cope with everything especially looking after my kids by myself. Im going to look at a house on mon.
I went to a friends bbq last weekend, first social thing i been to in a long time. i think it was a bit of a setup but. i think my friend was trying to set me up with his other friend who split up with his ex a few months ago, id going through similar issues with her as i am with my ex. we got along well but i dunno if anything else will happen. Knowing me id stuff it all up anyway. Our kids all got along well to.
My baby is now 5 months old & his fathers only seen him twice briefly since birth. great men i picked to be the fathers of my children hey, one sees his a couple of times a year but gives some money for him. His a lousy father. One contributed nothing, takes care of him zero & doesnt even wana admit his his, his a deadbeat dad!
My other son keeps asking for his dad & i dont know what to tell him. I used to just say away but his getting older, nearly 4 now so wants to know more soon. his less then half an hour away but never here. until recently was around the corner from us & still never saw him.