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I am worried about you and I do care.

Killing yourself isn't going to make things better.

I looked at your profile - you didn't leave your email address or anything about yourself. We deppies are not going to let you do anything to yourself.

I sure hope someone on here knows how to contact you. Anyone?

Hellhole, lets have a chat before you do anything. And then the rest is up to you.

Let me or any deppie know how to contact you.

Dove

Written by WhiteDove, 2. Sep 2008 10:16 PM

Dear hellhole

We do certainly give a damn about you, and your two little boys. You said in a diary recently how you loved your two boys very much. I'm sure they love you very much too. And they very much need you. Yes, your situation is hard. I hope your parents are understanding and helpful Please keep writing diaries here. Sometimes we read, but are lost for words of advice. I wish you all the best

Peter.

Written by surfer, 2. Sep 2008 10:38 PM

I am here for you too hellhole, I just don't read poetry.....

Written by maple, 2. Sep 2008 11:00 PM

Hellhole

I understand things are looking very dark right now... Peter is right ... your boys would definitely miss you... you would not be doing them a favour... I feel a bit helpless with regard to centrelink and your situation... Gyps gave you some advice which you tried... and it didn't work out... you need an advocate... someone like a social worker at centrelink might be able to help sort this payment issue out...

Do not go gentle into that good night... rage rage against the dying of the light...

Hellhole you are worth fighting for ... just as your boys are worth fighting for...

take care

if you decide to end it... leave a note... tell your boys why you left them alone... if you don't they will question for the rest of their lives what they did wrong to make mummy hate them so much she killed herself... right or wrong... that will happen...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 2. Sep 2008 11:44 PM

I left u a comment, Ive offered u advice & support where I can & specifically asked someone else to give advice coz I knew they could help, which they did.
Ive been watching out for some message from u, I didnt know what condition u were in...
Be aware the site was down for nearly 24 hours...
U need help hun, running or dying wont achieve anything...

Written by Gyps, 3. Sep 2008 12:13 AM

Hellhole......


I havent had the opportunity to chat with you, but I would like the chance to. I havent been on Dep as much as I usually am, but thats a decision I took. I would however like to get to know you better and my contact details are on my profile. Please think of your little ones and yourself, as life can be pretty good. Ive come a long way with my depression, and am glad I did.

Take care.
Love Lesley xxxxxxx

Written by lesleyk, 3. Sep 2008 09:19 AM

Dear hellhole
You have received a lot of support from your fellow DepNet users.
DepNet is a good place to receive support; however it is not a suitable place when one finds oneself in a crisis situation.
Please hellhole, you need to seek help.
You can find help by looking under the emergency help link on DepNet or by making an appointment to see an appropriate healthcare professional.
Please make sure that you seek help.
We wish you all the best.

Written by Moderator, 3. Sep 2008 12:25 PM

Hellhole,
I admire you for being a loving mother to your two boys. I would love to have a child, but fear i'd be in the same situation as you as i don't think my bf could cope.

I hope you are able to get support from those around you & us here at DepNet. I encourage you to seek support from a professional - there are people out there who can help without judging you or taking your kids away - it may take many attempts to find that person, but when you do - it'll be easier for you.

Best of luck for a brighter future for you & your boys

Written by reddog, 3. Sep 2008 08:44 PM

Hi hellhole,

I dont know you and I havent chatted with you, however I am concerned for you. This is a good place to air out how you really feel, so keep writing in your diary and get it all out.

All of us suffering with Dep have felt just like you sweetheart...Low self-esteem makes us feel so worthless, hopeless, helpless and we think everyone would be better off if we werent here but its NOT TRUE.

Its our dep that is rearing its ugly head and we have to fight it and its really damn bloody hard some days! Please get the help you need sweetheart because YOU ARE WORTH IT.

Get the help you need and you will be taking your first step to recovery. We all do give a damn about you. Remember one thing...There will never, ever be, another YOU on this Earth because... You are special, an original. A young woman with lots of Potential for a good life.

It's really hard work I know, I am just myself starting to see the light...Oh I am sooo glad I hung in there. There were times I just didnt want to and felt I couldnt go on any more, but I kept going on and I reached out for help and every resource available to me so I could go on and make my life better.

Please think about it hellhole because there is hope and a light at the end of the tunnel, really there is.

((((((((((hugs))))))))))

Written by cherry1, 4. Sep 2008 04:10 AM