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Written by hellhole 22. Aug 2008 10:11 PM

Finished moving & lost the last of my independence, moving in with my folks, something i havnt done since i was 14 (now 23) when i was kicked out. They had nothing to do with me til I was 19 & found out i was going to give them there first grandchild. Everything is everywhere. I gave away some of our things, some is in storage the rest is here with us somewhere. We just have to uncover everything & make room for things so we can move around better.

I put on a brave face for my children but really not so good at all. How do i create stability for my babies with i have zero stability in myself? How do i create a future for them when i dont even know if il be in it or will have one at all? People keep saying how strong i am being able to cope with so much, but i certainly dont feel that way. Every night i cry myself to sleep & part of me doesnt wana wake up again.

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Written by maple, 22. Aug 2008 10:38 PM

Hey Hellhole

Moving can be such a pain in the butt can't it! But you will get things organised, it just takes time and spare time isn't something you have a lot of when you have young kids to look after.

You are strong to be able to cope with so much, you just can't see it in yourself because of the depression. Just give things time to sort themselves out and you also need time to adjust to your new living arrangements. Take one day at a time and I know you will create a great future for yourself and your kids. You sound like a very caring mum. Hang in there and try not to be too hard on yourself. We always judge ourselves the harshest.

Good luck
Shadowdancer xxx

Written by Shadowdancer, 22. Aug 2008 11:11 PM

Re last post-
DONT WRITE FATHER UNKNOWN.
From memory u only need the fathers signature if the surname is different to his? Check it out with birth deaths & marriages.
Also dunno what state your in but all u gotta do 2 satisfy centerlink is APPLY for child support, NOT recieve it!
Take in the court stuff where he went for visitation-proves he's the dad- then apply for child support. Get your pension done on disbursement amount which means your pension is based on the amount of child support u actually get

Written by Gyps, 23. Aug 2008 12:52 AM

Instead of what u SHOULD get.
Its the way I do it, given Im owed over 30 grand I kinda been thru this lol
Make sure u ring centrelink ASAP coz some things can be backdated to the date u ring them with the intention to claim so long as u do it within 2 weeks. Dunno if that applies in this case tho...
The paperwork where he applied for visitation is the clincher, u MUST take that with u!
Dont stress if your child has his surname, my daughter has her fathers on her certificate but she assumed my ex's when we

Written by Gyps, 23. Aug 2008 12:58 AM

Got married. That was 7 years ago, she's 11 now. I didnt force the name change on her, it was her choice as she wanted to be the same as everyone else(he's got 3 kids to his first marriage)! Its not legal but its what everyone knows her as, its also what she was baptised as!
Maybe see if u can hyphen the 2 surnames???
Goodluck
xxx

Written by Gyps, 23. Aug 2008 01:02 AM

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