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The Roller Coaster Ride

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Written by Mikey 16. Apr 2008 09:00 PM

Some of you might know i havent been going to well as of late, but my mood has picked up alittle and i am doing things now.
I picked up that i go through cycles, where i am constantly keeping myself busy. I find if i stop just for half an hour, i start to go down hill. The problem with that is, i dont stop and i burn the candle at both ends and continue to push myself until i burn myself out, ending up so run down and tired and ending up sick with the flu, then the dep comes along, resulting in weeks in bed feeling like crap. I am also still having low blood pressure issues
It just seems im going around in circles and i always end up back were i started from, i just dont know what to do.
This week i have visited a number of friends, ive been to the gym everyday, i went for a surf at maroubra beach today plus working.
Im also having some issues with work, im getting sick and tired with all the crap with what management puts us through, i want to leave. But on the other hand it's a government job, and with my illness and the time i have off, i dont think the private indistry would handle it as well.

Take care

Mikey xxx

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Mikey

maybe some of the information you keep in your diary can be used to help you learn more about the cycles you are experiencing.. and maybe getting a friend or family member to help monitor your up periods so that you get some rest... and slow down the number of cycles of depression that follows the up... and avoid the illness... also show your psych your diary to help them help you manage the cycles..

it is just an idea.. you have got some good insight... now to use that insight..

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 16. Apr 2008 09:48 PM

Hey Mikey,

You are sounding a lot more positive than you have in a while, and i can understand your thinking of going around in circles and everything working in cycles. It does, but you may be able to use it to our advantage. I could never pick my cycles of highs and lows, but some of my workmates and friends could, so maybe if they know a little of what you are going through, they may be able to alert you to changes in your behavior. Mine did and it saved me a few times from hospital visits as i was able to get help before things got really really bad.

I'm not saying this is for everyone, but it helped me a couple of times, and maybe your friends can see more than you think.

Not sure about the job situation, but i was in a private enterprise and they coped fairly well with my absences from work, so if you really don't like your work that much, it could just be adding to your stress and making things worse. A change of work could just be the medicine you need.

Take care Mikey,

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 16. Apr 2008 10:38 PM

Hi mike
It has been rough on you lately, i hope soon u can find out what is causing your blood pressure problem which in turn will hopefully help your moods, in the mean time you know u can call me at any time.
Take care mike

(((((((((((mike)))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 17. Apr 2008 05:46 PM

Mike

This is a very positive diary from what has been written recently.

I know you are going through cycicals of wellness or badness - like we all do - you need to keep your government job because as you are fully aware/wrote, the private sector won't allow this to happen - take leave when you are unwell.

Perhaps when you are feeling up, you should do things slowly and take baby steps at a time to get things done and help you feel better. There is always a house in Brisbane that can do with your personal touch!!! lol!!!

Go Mike!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 17. Apr 2008 09:11 PM

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