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Written by Mikey 31. Mar 2008 07:29 PM

I have been really struggling over the last few weeks, and it was at the point where i would come home from work between 1pm and 2pm, i would shower, then take my meds and sleepers and go to bed. I would wake some hours later, and would take more sleepers. All i want to do is sleep, its the only time im not suffering. I just feel i want to go to sleep and not wake up.
I tried to break this habbit yesterday by staying up and keeping myself busy, i still felt like sh*t, but managed to do it. Today since i finished worked i kept myself busy doing house work (woop-de-do, how exciting).
I am so tired both physically and mentally.
The possatives: Im managing to go to work. I havent self medicated in 2 days. I am trying again to do things.

Love

Mikey xxx

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Mike

You are doing the right thing - not self medicating and going to work. You need to talk to someone about how you are feeling - make sure your thyroid is okay/not giving a positive negative.

My place is still in need of a clean!!!

Go Mike!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 31. Mar 2008 07:35 PM



MIKEY,,,,,

Good on ya Hun, for hanging in there and not going overboard on the sleepers. I am so proud of you for having the strength to do that. My life wouldnt be the same without you in it. You are a person, I care a lot about and I feel for you with what youre going through. I wish that we lived close enough so that I could make a difference and get you out of the rut youre in, but unfortunately I dont. I am here though, even though Im a state away.Im a phone call away Mikey, dont forget that.

Keep up the good work and remember you are loved by a lot of us, me included.
Take care,
Les xxxxxxxxxxx

Written by lesleyk, 31. Mar 2008 07:37 PM

woop-de-do?
WOOP-DE-DOO???

Gees mate, cut yourself some slack would ya!!! You not only manage to go to work - least you HAVE a job!, but you also did house work!!!!! Wanna do my dishes????

well no not do them coz their done coz that aint the prob, its the bending to put them away thats the issue, kinda cant do it coz the incision under my belly button has split open coz Ive had to do stuff I shouldnt've been doing!!!!!

You've stayed up and kept busy and done the essentials which is more than a lot of people do so you should damn well be proud of yourself, got it!!!

love you Mikey
mmmwa
xxx

Written by Gyps, 31. Mar 2008 08:43 PM

Hey Mikey,

I know you are struggling at the moment from last time i was on chat with you. It was hard and i thought i had said something to upset you, which i am still not sure of.
You are doing a great job by going to work and trying your hardest to stay up as long as you can. As for the cleaning, i always had a cleaner when i worked full time, which was a godsend, something you might want to consider.
Self medicating is not something i can comment on as it is something i have to do daily to cope with the world ( and i still don't cope ) so i wish you the best of luck with that side of things Mikey.

I'm probably not much help to you, not to anyone if the truth be known, but wanted to say that i am so very sorry if i said anything to upset you the other night, i can't even remember what we were talking about at the time but know that you left very quickly.

Mikey, at least you can actually find some positives in your life, which is more than i can say for myself at the moment.

Good luck Mikey, i hope things get a little easier for you.

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 31. Mar 2008 09:26 PM

Hi mike
I'm glad you are trying to stop self medicating, i always have plenty of house work to do if u run out, or maybe i could offer u a kid or 2 or 3 they would keep u busy.
Sorry i have'nt been there for u much the last few days, please take care mike

((((((((((mike))))))))))

b1

Written by bananas, 31. Mar 2008 10:00 PM