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Written by Mikey 16. Mar 2008 04:41 PM

This week has really been a rough one, i have had the worst week at work that i have ever had, and on top of that, i have been so tired and run down. My mood has been dropping each day, and today i have bottomed out. I havent really been eating properly over the last week and a half, and i put my tiredness down to that, but i have started eating again over the last few days, and eating healthy, but im still so worn out. I feel i have no fight left in me.
Im feeling so alone, empty inside, worthless.
I feel i am never going to marry or have children, i feel i am going to die young, at my own hands.(not planing too).
Atm im missing female attention, not that ive been going out latley to meet anyone. I just feel i need a big hug.

Take care

Mikey xxx

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Mickey

Hugs to you... but i know what you mean...and time flies... you are doing well in returning to healthy eating and taking care of yourself... try to get out with some friends... and you can get hugs from them... and it is good you are recognising that you have been unwell... it will take time to restore you to feeling better with the care you are taking of yourself now..

Be patient... and be gentle on yourself... and keep taking care of yourself...

as to marrying... you need to be out there to meet someone... and open to feeling their love... depression puts blinkers on us... and sometimes we do not see there is a person who cares for us in a special way...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 16. Mar 2008 05:17 PM

Mikey

I'm really sorry to hear you have had such a bad week. You are anything but worthless my friend and you know how to contact me if you wish to chat.

((((((((((Mikey))))))))))

Jenny xxx

Written by lifesucks, 16. Mar 2008 05:35 PM

Sorry you have had a bad week Mikey. There is a lovely lady out there for you somewhere I am sure, but depression sure does cause people to withdraw from others.
Try to eat healthy, and you will slowly get your strength back.
Sending you a big hug, even though I do not know you personally.
Hugs Pat xx

Written by Deleted_User, 16. Mar 2008 09:43 PM

Hi mikey,

I wish i could be there personally to give you the great big hug that you need.
It is awful when we have a bad week etc, but you have come out the other side now and are on the way back up again so keep up the good work with the healthy eating (i wish i could be as good as you in that way).
You are not worthless and as for marrying and children, it won't happen over night, but it will happen. Do you have a group of friends that you can go out with or that have any single friends you can meet with in a group?

Hang in there mate, a perfect lady will come along and you will wonder what all the fuss was about.

Take care Mikey

Luv Nouse

PS: i have 3 boys you can borrow for a while, that might turn you off the kids bit!!!

Written by Nouse, 16. Mar 2008 10:18 PM

Oh Mikey, how cum u Havent been eating???
Pls look afta yrself, u must keep up yr strength 4 work & 4 yr mind.
Sorry Ive not been in contact, been crook as from meds but changed em 2day. Got surgery tues then'll b online end of wk. Chat then, ok babe
xxx

Written by Gyps, 16. Mar 2008 11:29 PM

& yr NOT worthless, yr a wonderful guy who'll do anythin 2 help a friend in need. U reach out wen least expected & do all u can 2 ease 1's load.
That makes u a VERY special guy 2 me!
We all miss that special company, dont sell yrself short. Yr amazing
xxx

Written by Gyps, 16. Mar 2008 11:34 PM

Mike Mike Mike!!!

What am I going to do with you. You can contact me and we can talk - that offer is always there.

You are the most worthy person I know in depnet given what you have been through so get rid of that worthless thought.

Depression causes most of us to withdraw and I have done the same thing from my friends - was nice to see them last night and catch up with them - don't mean to rub salt into the wound. You are doing what is normal in depression so stop worrying about it. Get out with your friends and mates and for god sake hug your mates - I know it isn't the same as hugging a female but it will help you feel wanted/worthy/part of the world.

Be strong my friend and marriage and kids will come when the time is right and the right person comes by so stop stressing about that one.

Go Mike!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 17. Mar 2008 12:40 AM

Hi mike!!!!

Take care of yourself and keep safe okie :)

Love yourself first and than maybe one day you will find a lady who will accept you just the way you are.

Lotsa love
Debbie./

Take care hun

Written by Deleted_User, 17. Mar 2008 04:15 PM



((((((((((((((((mike)))))))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 17. Mar 2008 04:51 PM