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I always find it easier to do my volunteer work than paid work (when I had a job that is). I think maybe it is because I didn't HAVE to do the volunteer stuff - my job seemed so forced. They had a roster and were relying on me to be there. Perhaps the same thing with you?

A good scream can actually help sometimes. If you're worried about the neighbours, scream into a pillow. It does good things.

Written by babz, 3. May 2008 04:05 PM

The hardest part about working, no matter whether you have depression or not, or what job you do...is going to work. Don't be too hard on yourself cateblack. When I feel as you do, I try to picture how I will feel at the end of the day, because I know I will feel fine after work as I have accomplished what I set out do.

Written by maple, 3. May 2008 04:06 PM

Cate

Perhaps it is the routine of the week and you need some time off for yourself and you are kept busy with your volunteer work that you don't always get me time. Just a suggestion given I can't work or even do volunteer work.

Hope it has you thinking - you might be overcomitting with the volunteer work so you need some me time during the week and then you might get to work/feel like going to your paid work on the weekend. They sound like they are a good place to work - understanding of your illness and that is a plus. Don't let them slip through your fingers as good employers who are understanding with mental illness are hard to come by.

Go Cate!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 3. May 2008 04:15 PM

Hi Cate,

It is so difficult to get motivated, and when it is something that doesn’t interest you it can be doubly hard.

As you know (from your lovely comment on my last post) I have returned to working and reading your entry just now was like going back to my last job, it was seriously awful and I hung on and hung on to t because I knew I had to feel like it hadn’t beaten me, do you know what? It never beat me because I took the power back by resigning.

Now this may not be practical for you or appropriate but making sure you retain the power, or control, is a very important thing.

You have a few worries at present and I am sending you strength to deal with them, perhaps a counselor or psychologist could help you make a plan or some goals that sees you take back what is yours that you may be loosing through depression.

You are obviously getting some satisfaction from volunteering tat you don’t get from your paid work. What is it? Less pressure, more variety, fewer challenges, the right identity?

Maybe if you can investigate and uncover you might find it a little easier.

Just my thoughts Cate, hope they help


Take care of you

Liz
XXX

Written by keller, 3. May 2008 06:02 PM