I had a thought
A page in the diary "Meandering Thoughts"
Written by cateblack 25. Apr 2008 05:59 PM
Yesterday I had a really good session with my Counsellor. We are using expressive therapies with a process called the inquiry method. As we discussed part of the process is exploring what I am conscious of that is influencing me. Last week we worked out a sense of identity is quintessential to my wellness. I feel as if this process is going to unlock some of the fear I have about my identity. I no longer want to think of myself as this depressed angry person. I want to explore my character and eccentricity... Part of me wants to accept my natural reserve and desire for respectability as well as my strong sense of justice.
There is another part of me that wants to be my oddball self who is not afraid of the ridiculous and openly willing to chase butterflies and rainbows while having conversations with imps and elves...
These parts conflict in me... along with other things... i do not know what is real about me... who is this person I have constructed...
I had this great illumination about how we construct ourselves using a mixture of innate traits inherited into self and some desired traits stolen from media and social contacts together to make "ME" ...
Anyway... that is part of the prize at the end of the rainbow.... ME..
So as an INTP I am only part constructed...
rgds
cate