Decisions... oh dear!!!!
A page in the diary "Meandering Thoughts"
Written by cateblack 10. Apr 2008 03:46 PM
Well I went to see the Surgeon who does lap banding yesterday... but before I went there I heard some bad stuff about him so I was a bit nervous ... he talked at me ... like he had a spiel that he uses for every patient... I had to interrupt him to ask questions... comes down to whether I can manage to stay on a really strict diet for the rest of my life... not one of my strong suits... and i am worried about his after sales service... it sounds good but can it be believed? ... Now this prompted me to go home and scan the internet for stories about lap banding and problems... and boy did i find some stuff... both good and bad... very bad... so I have lots to think about... one... change doctors... two... can I maintain the pre op diet? If i can do that why not do the Cohen's diet? ... three do I want to sell my house to pay for this operation?... four... where do i live if i sell my house? five... what great change is going to happen to my attitude if I was like this before I got fat? six... why would I do something once i lost the weight I wouldn't do before I was fat?... and so the questions go on... I will admit before i got fat I would at least attempt things before I realised that it was a waste of time... now i just think it through and don't attempt it... because i know it is a waste of time... I was stupid before...
Not sure what to do... need to talk to someone who is neutral ... mental health nurse GP and family say do what ever you have to do to lose weight... suffer any pain... to show you mean to do it... we can't believe you mean it if you do not even try to lose weight... and you need to prove yourself because we will not help you if you will not help yourself...
that is all
rgds
cate