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Sounds like you're in a tough spot. Especially when treatment seems to be ineffective. Let us know if you start any other treatment and if it seems to be working any better.

Written by Cocksy_86, 25. Mar 2008 02:01 AM

Dear cateblack

You are obviously struggling at the moment with your illness, family and most importantly yourself.

Please note the following comments from one of our psychiatrists:

1. Getting help
It may be helpful to view suicidal thoughts as your brain, body and emotions screaming out for help. Please get help as quickly as you can, even if you have to be assertive to do so. Do be pushy if necessary and insist. Don’t take no for an answer. Try different people or different agencies or different approaches, if the initial ones don’t hear your distress. Don’t let the blackness of depression get in the way of getting help.

Some places you will find help:
o Your local doctor
o The Emergency Department at your local hospital
o Any psychologist, psychiatrist, counsellor, therapist, community centre or doctor you are seeing or have seen before
o Lifeline: Phone: 131114 from anywhere in Australia
o A number of different services are available in each State – see this website for more of them:
http://www.suicidepreventionaust.org/GettingHelp.aspx

2. Suicide is not a solution
Most people who get depressed, no matter how terrible their circumstances and no matter how despairing they feel at times, DO find that they improve with support, help and treatment. Attempting suicide is NEVER a solution and ALWAYS makes things far, far worse, especially for those who love you, no matter what their age. Having a family member or friend commit suicide is a terrible burden for people to bear, even if they are adults when it happens. The pain of loss and abandonment is profound.

Thoughts about suicide and death need to be dealt with in private treatment with a clinician you like and trust, who knows you and your circumstances, and who is in a position to help you feel better. I strongly encourage you to find such a person, so that you can feel better and more optimistic about your future.

Take care
The DepNet Team

Written by Moderator, 25. Mar 2008 09:00 AM

It sounds hard for you Cate, the thing to remember is from what you have written and what I understand its 'The Depression talking'.
I dont think there is anything 'wrong' with you at all.
Our feelings can be so overwhelming as well as confusing when we are feeling depressed.
I try to do things to distract me - for example I do crocheting on the train ( am making a scarf for my god daughter) and I find that I get absorbed by what I am doing.
I sincerely hope things start to shift for you - and you start to see and feel some sunshine!
Thanks for all of your positive comments on my diaries.
Much Appreciated!

Written by bluefix, 26. Mar 2008 11:24 AM

Cate

I have suicidal ideation as well but I have not acted on mine as I couldn't put the people I love through it. Please speak to your psychiatrist about it and read the info sheets on the SANE site.

Go Cate!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 31. Mar 2008 06:50 PM