words fail me...
A page in the diary "Meandering Thoughts"
Written by cateblack 7. Oct 2008 11:41 PM
I am home now... they kicked me out with a "you are discharged" and i am not sure i know what to say... i am humbled by the outpouring of support and care from the deppies... I have read some of the posts and have more to read... thank you for all the detective work... it is gratifying to know that we have so many clever and creative ppl so that if any of us go missing ... there are ways and means of getting in touch with someone to find out what has happened...
The pdocs said it is depression... they said it is stress... not sure that is what it is totally... today I find it hard to believe i thought and felt the way i did... I am still sad at times... and the thoughts of death come and go but i can manage them better now...
i am back on my meds...
I feel a little lost ... keep wondering how I will survive today... so this hour goes by and yes i made it... and so on to the next hour... and the one after that... that is how I will survive it... and i listen to the part of me that wants to live...
Knowing you guys are out there fighting too helps me...
from the bottom of my heart and soul... Thank you... and if I can do for any of you... just ask... if i can do it i will...
take care...
rgds
cate