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Written by cateblack 1. Oct 2008 02:46 AM
yes told pdoc i couldn't drive because of traffic lights and wanting to run ppl over... he told me not to drive too much... i think that is what he said ...i do not remember now... he said take my meds... he said i am now bi polar... now... maybe hashimotos... will tell pdoc and gp next week... i have to see a podiatrist to get my toe nails cut...
and i told him about the virus too... i don't remember what he said...
oh dear what can the matter be... oh dear what can the matter be... the something is too long at the fair...
be right back bye
rgds
cate
ps .... tried to ring lifeline tonight... they put me on hold... no one to talk to ... i tried to chat on the phone to a couple of friends but they did not want to talk to me... they had their lives... they do not want to listen to a person who is making things up... i think ... i am so scared... i know something bad is going to happen and i can't stop it happening... i can't talk to anyone... no one will listen ... i do not know what to do... how can i stop this... i can feel the evil permeating the air... they are hunting me... i spoke to dee... i told her... she said ring the hospital... i did that and she said ... have meds and warm milk... i can remember feeling like this before ... that is when the ufo's were hunting and i prayed to the devil to make them go away... they left me alone... but i don't want to pray to the devil again... i am an empath... i can feel things... i can feel that something bad is going to happen... i can feel it right through out my body... i am so scared...
she said tell myself this is not real... but it is real... i can feel them hunting ... and i can't stop them ... they are going to destroy me... i know it...
have to go now... and take meds and hope they don't find me... i must be alert and wary ... can't let them catch me unawares...