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Boredom...

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Written by cateblack 10. Sep 2008 01:46 AM

I am bored... I go to the email and there are no new emails... i go to depnet diaries and no new entries... or maybe there is one or two... i check the number of comments.. and yes there it is... the number has increased... quick... open the diary ... read the comments... check again... no ... no new entries... back to the emails... no new emails... check the junk mail... delete the junk mail... off to play spider solitaire... a few games... wow... msn ... someone wants to chat... yay!! off i go and chat... they get busy or tired and go after a while... I go back to spider... then off to emails... no .. nothing new... off to depnet... nothing new... back to spider... will i look up the ABC website?... no... maybe not... go back to watching tv... all i can do to keep myself occupied... I do not do housework... i sit at my computer day and night... with some breaks... to eat... to shop... maybe help a friend... back to the computer to avoid thinking about the terrible thing i did today... i let a friend down... she made a special trip to visit me from northern nsw... a one time visit... only i forgot to write it in my diary and so forgot she was coming... and i went off and did other things... and got home too late... she is angry and hurt ... i feel sick to my stomach for letting her down... I do not forgive myself... I rang and spoke to her and apologised over and over again... i hate myself for forgetting...

so now I am back to tv ... and depnet... my own diary...

I do not have any meds... i do not need them... i am not ill anymore... the thing i am sorry about now ... is i am not able to go back to work full time... or go back to regular work... now I am too obese as i think i have said before... what do i do about not being physically able to manage work now? I feel a little defeated... get my mind better and my body gives up... damn... i know... lose weight... oh well...

well that is all...

take care

rgds
cate
well that is my

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Comments from the community:

Good one doofus!

That is your what???

Your excuse?
Your day?
Your story?
Your tale?
Your problem?
Your worry?
Your burden?
Your fault?
Your diary?
Your post?
Your night over?
Your kettle boiled?
Your cat demanding attention?
Your bed calling?
Your job done?
Your what?
What damn it!
Tell me!
Put me outta my misery!
Your WHAT???
Its too damn late for these riddles, TELL ME, its your WHAT???

Written by Gyps, 10. Sep 2008 02:31 AM

Your typo???

Written by Gyps, 10. Sep 2008 02:34 AM

Re your kookaburra post-

The kookaburra is an Australian Native bird, yet in the opening scenes of The Lion King movie, set in the wilds of Africa, u can hear a kookaburra laughing away!

Just a bit of midnight trivia for u...

Written by Gyps, 10. Sep 2008 02:43 AM

Want some more?

What is the Swagman's name outta the song Waltzing Matilda?

Written by Gyps, 10. Sep 2008 02:45 AM

Oh dear sweet cate if I had your email I would send u lots.I was up in brissie last friday I would have loved to have a coffee with u.So any time u want to meet a senile old granny just yell ok TC

Written by Deleted_User, 10. Sep 2008 03:38 AM

cate,

I would send you lots of emails to make you smile aswell.

Forgive yourself about your friends visit, we all do this some time in our lives. Just shows we are human and make mistakes.

Take care.

Written by Mumof2, 10. Sep 2008 05:02 PM

The name of the Swagman who danced with Matilda?

Andy!

Andy sang, Andy watched, Andy waited til the billy boiled...

Written by Gyps, 10. Sep 2008 10:46 PM

Well, you'll just have to mark your calender in future. learn from the mistake

Written by NotHappyJan, 11. Sep 2008 07:42 AM

Big hugs cate. Don,t be so hard on yourself,and guilt will just wear you out , and gets you know where at the end of the day,l hope you will fell better soon, don,t have a answer for boredom .take care for now,and make tommorrow a bit of a better day
rubee xxx

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Sep 2008 07:35 PM

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