Mood change... again
A page in the diary "Meandering Thoughts"
Written by cateblack 27. Aug 2008 02:18 PM
This is just a way of recording the mood swings... started Monday afternoon... I could feel the mood lift... i did nothing to make it happen... I shut down over the weekend before... and here it was Monday and a mood shift... Tuesday was quite good... and here I am on Wednesday and my mood is quite uplifted... now is it because of the increase in lithium? ... or is it my natural body chemistry? I went from 60 on the deptest to 88 and now I bet if i did it today I would be back up again..
Helped a friend out with her dvd material... we listened to dozens of pieces of music to try and find a suitable track for her dvd... now it is me going Not that one ... and she says "what about this one" and I say "no!! too sweet.... not enough tension"...
what am i doing ... it is her dvd
Well it took one phone call and my mood has plummetted into despair... i am on a waiting list for a lift for my house... but in discussion with my family it has been decided I will sell my house and move into either a unit or supported accommodation... I do not want to move ... I keep thinking I will be fine... my family want me in supported accommodation... but I do not want to go to supported accommodation... i looked at it as a last ditch option... but if I have to move i would prefer to move to a unit... this is all too much ...
i think i have talked about this before... it goes round and round in circles... i am not able to decide... things are in limbo with my guardian ... will my sister be appointed or will i remain with the public trust...
i do not want to think about this... i want the world to go away... just leave me in peace doing what i want to do... but that doesn't work ... i need to be involved in the world ...
i am so confused...
well that is all
rgds
cate