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Written by cateblack 24. Aug 2008 01:17 AM

Things have been quiet... i helped a friend out with her wildlife photography the other day... I could barely control myself... we ended early as I got irritable and couldn't focus on the task... so we had organised previously to do something the next day on Friday... spent the whole day there... she took me out to dinner to thank me for helping... she is good that way...

spoke to another friend today... again I got irritable about Colin now known as Colleen the baby whale...

I was supposed to go to work tonight ... but i cancelled... I just could not motivate myself to go... and there is no physical reason for not going... only my mental state... I didn't want to stay home either... I don't know where i wanted to be ... not here... not there...

Watching the olympics again... on the net and on tv.. sorry MG ... it occupies a lazy mind...

tried to learn about animation... not sure I understand what I am doing... a woman i know told me i could go to her place and learn how to make a movie of stills... she does it... not sure I can do it... we shall see...

anyway... I just wanted to record that i feel down and not getting better... i want this all to be over... and one day it will be...

enough complaining... have a good day... take care

I did forget one thing... my cat Gus always makes me smile... I worry that i am not the best slave for my master Gus.... he deserves so much better...

rgds
cate

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Yes Cate, one day it will be over and you will be better - sooner than you expect I hope I wish I was smart enough to do the photography work you do.

Peter

Written by surfer, 24. Aug 2008 11:23 AM

Thats not nice that you get so irritable, i remember getting like that, i would just walk away from my friends in the middle of a conversation.
Hope things look up for you
dont think that about gus!!!!! you do deserve to have him, if he makes you smile, then thats so important. When my parents seperated my dad took my favourite dog, i was FURIOUS! but i started to make arrangments so i could go over and see her, its it makes me happy, so dont start thinking negativly about the thing that makes you happy!

keep smiling
xx
Amy

Written by Awoods, 24. Aug 2008 02:56 PM

Pets are such a huge source of comfort. Sometimes my two cats (Fluffy and Charli) and my dog (Frankie) are all that keep me going. I am sure you are a very good slave for Gus, because you are a very caring person.

Written by babz, 24. Aug 2008 07:52 PM

'I don't know where i wanted to be ... not here... not there...'

god, i hate that feeling.

things are boring you because you are too smart for them.

Written by zombieluv, 24. Aug 2008 10:02 PM

Hi sweetie, So sorry you are feeling like crap.But still gives the animation ago when you are feeling better .l just go a digital camera absolutely love it not sure how to work it properly but having lots of fun with it. Your not getting your special time of the month [period] lol that sends me into a mad flipping crazy woman, and if gus makes you smile you must be doing something right and l am sure he is one happy puddy cat. l hope you feel so much better soon, big hugs and chin up take care
rubee xxx

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