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Written by cateblack 15. Jul 2008 08:09 PM

I noticed over the weekend that Mrs Studying has not made any entries... did she go to hospital after all? ... I was just wondering if anyone knew...

I had a 71 self test result... that is good... I just find that some of the items do not change... my decision making is pathetic... I find it impossible to be hopeful about a negative future... i do not lose weight.... my eating is still over eating ... so no chance of real recovery...

But I am not in crisis and I am reasonably content except when i have to climb up and down the stairs... lol.. and content when I have food in the cupboard...

I hate ppl who tell you they will be somewhere up to 1pm and when you get there at 12.55 there is no one there... they all left... before 1pm... they lied... it is not good enough... I know they are volunteers but they said they would wait for me... they lied... I hate ppl who lie... I want to hit them... and scream and shout at them... but i won't ... I will be reasonable...

It is good to see Gyps and LazyDreamer aka MG back and MickM and I hope Matt aka NotHappy is doing well..

Thank you to those who commented on my diaries - I do appreciate the comments... even if I do not believe myself to be intelligent and thoughtful... I try to use wise mind from all the therapies I have done...

take care

rgds
cate

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Comments from the community:

hey hun take a heap of laxettes and your score will change... being constipated will make your dep score worse! :-P

But seriously, my score hasnt changed much in ages, dont sweat the small stuff, there's an okay 94, a bad 94, a shit 94 and a crisis 94... its all ....... frigged if I can think of the word! I need a smoke so my brains dead and my arse is numb from sittin here for 2.5 hrs! lol

1 would assume Stud got banned for her little effort over the weekend... Im surprised you never figured that out.... also the 3 diaries were also deleted/made private.....

Thems the rules - give out that sorta shit and its an automatic suspension for a week or two... or if the case may warrant, a permanent ban......

I may not've been on here but Im sure aware of what happened and Im surprised I gotta explain it to you Cate...

Just let it be a lesson to all.... there's now a no tolerance approach on here.

Anyhoot, my arse is about dead so hoo-roo

mmmwa
xxx

Written by Gyps, 15. Jul 2008 09:06 PM

Thanks for your comment Cate, you hit the nail on the head, and I knew it before you even wrote it. I didn't think I would have to lie about it, I feel as if I was duped somewhat by my surgeon (and by myself) into thinking that nobody would ask about it. This is because it was painted to me as a fairly minor procedure, not the major one it actually was. I thought I would be able to live with it, because I didn't think I would have to lie to other people. I think maybe I even believed that I would be fooled into thinking it was from an accident. I underestimated myself in thinking that. You're right, the scar is a lie, but not only is it a lie, it is a lie that is hiding a multitude of lies. A bad situation has been made even worse, unfortunately.

Written by babz, 15. Jul 2008 10:27 PM

I hope that Depnet can now start to get back to normal. And hope that the past is forgotten.(HUGGLES) TC

Written by Deleted_User, 15. Jul 2008 10:29 PM

Yeah cate -=- I've noticed she wasn't around too. Maybe she checked into the hospital. Maybe she copped a suspension. I don't know, but I hope she's okay.

As for you, you need to believe in yourself a little (or find someone who does!). I don't know much about you, but you have at least got brains and inner beauty - and that stuff is priceless! Don't beat yourself up too much.

I miss your posts when you're not around too, you know.

G

Written by g463, 16. Jul 2008 01:13 AM