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Saturday 21 June ... catch up

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Written by cateblack 21. Jun 2008 03:54 PM

I am wondering what it is I want... I have been offered a job... after I made a complaint of discrimination... and pending a health assessment and I am not sure it is permanent... but it is part time... which is good... but can i manage it? ... I have been offered friendship and have been cautious... I am afraid...

my current employer who i will stay with has cut my shifts over the next two weeks... not sure if this is permanent or not...

I am sitting here at home in front of the computer, listening to the tv and wondering what i want...

I am not depressed but the scores on the deptest say i am... my mental health nurse says i am... the symptoms I outline say i am... but i do not feel depressed ... I don't even feel numb this week... I feel quite detached from my feelings... I have been so tired lately... taking nana naps and missing appointments... especially appointments I wanted to go to... important to me... i think i feel like i am bored today... wondering what to do... can't write... no ideas for stories... can't read... eyesight is a problem... even the new glasses do not make a difference... the cat has gone outside...

My cat Gus needs a brush.. and some knots in his coat cut out... but he won't stay still for me to do it... I need a hand ... so I will try and ask the PHAMS ppl to help... SkinnyLatte the stray has been missing for a couple of days but has come back last night... he wanted food of course... so he must have been off tomcatting ... he is a full tom... not my fault... trust won't pay for his neutering... i do not have the money...

my sister is applying to take over guardianship of my finances... at my agreement... it will save $5000 a year... i need to do that... have to do some things for it...

my printer doesn't always work... it misfeeds and has errors all the time... most annoying..

This is a catch up diary... i think that is all so far...

take care

rgds
cate

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Comments from the community:

Cate

With all that is happening for you right now... I hold you in my thoughts and wish to bring comfort and company to you.

All I have right now is to say we are having similar days by the sounds of it, and that I too am short on words and energy right this minute.

I will continue to offer you my friendship and allow you the space and time to test out how it feels for you and whether it is right for you. There is no rush or use by date.

I am so tired right now from lack of sleep, that I would say to you lets get in our flannel jammies sit on the couch and watch this dvd a friend gave me to watch this weekend called "PS...I love you"... or read a Patricia Cornwell novel... play with Max, Gus or SkinnyLatte... or even just fall asleep.

My shoulder is yours if you could bare the touch to rest you head on it. Whatever... wherever... I would be there for you today.

Nickhy

Written by Alchemy, 21. Jun 2008 06:00 PM

Cate

We all go through what you are going through so don't think you are alone. Nanna naps are part of the meds and how they affect you sleep - so I found out as a result of my sleep study - got a copy of it but really don't understand a thing it is saying.

Makes sense to have your sister looking after your affairs instead of the the current arrangement. Better the money in your pocket than their's.

Glad the cats are okay and skinnylatte turned up. Out tarting no doubt. Maybe you can get some money to have the vet do the snip.

What was the discrimination in the job?? You need to find out more details and then make a decision after the health assessment as I really do believe they will ask about psychiatric illness. As for your other job, you need to see why your shifts are being cut - what if anything you have done to cause this change.

Go Cate!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 21. Jun 2008 06:59 PM

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