To My Special Friend
A page in the diary "The Days Of My Life"
Written by lifesucks 12. Feb 2008 01:07 AM
Rarely does someone ever come into your life that you feel so connected to that you can share your innermost thoughts and secrets.
I was so lucky to experience this for the first time in my life ever and I am so grateful that I had that chance. That special person has now decided that they are causing me too much pain that they have set me free.
I lived with my walls up for years because I was terrified of being hurt. This time I trusted and opened my heart and accepted this person unconditionally. I loved them like family and I was told over and over that the feeling was returned.
I have no idea why I am not strong enough to deal with my past. It seems to keep surfacing constantly in my life.
Had I have been able to bury my feelings this friendship would never have ended the way it did. I honestly thought that I was accepted for who I was and that I didn't have to hide anything. I am who I am and who I am has never felt good enough for anyone. Sure I have other friends in my life but never one as close as I have been to this person.
To My Friend
I am so sorry that I was too much for you to deal with and know that I will never stop caring about you. You mean so much to me but to save you the pain I will accept your decision if that's what you really want. Take care and I love you.