Memories
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Written by riles 31. Jan 2008 10:47 AM
I remember cuddling my baby, he meant everything to me, there is nothing like baby warmth and that distinctive baby smell. I loved caring for him, changing his nappy, feeding him and the daily routine all revolved around him. I would find oppertunities to get outside and go for a walk or just play in the backyard, enjoying all of his first experiences with him. Things have changed, now he is three, I have more time with my thoughts, he doesn't need me as much, isn't as conncted to me as he onces was. We have grown apart and I need to start being me, again, although, it seems like I have lost myself somewhere along the way, I used to have a strong sense of self, connected with work, career and being a wife, now I have gone from being a 24 hour around the clock mum, to not knowing what I am.... Not sure where to go from here. I still enjoy cuddles and being with Riles, but it is different now, not sure if it is just coming off the meds, or the differences that alway happen in different stages of life, who knows.