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Not a fraud..people change over time..but many things are integral and stay the same. Good you are working through things which may have been affecting you over time, though I am not much into dredging up the past, except wherein it gives me a better understanding of myself. I am more interested in today, and managing....learning coping skills far more important than going over past incidents...
All the best.

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Jan 2008 06:42 PM

Wow this is me!
I too had never faced the demons of the past and looked over the balance of my life with a clinical psychologist and gleened perspective i never had before.

Ayla and I have a difference of opinion on the here and now coping skills verses the going over the past stuff. But for me the rehash of my past has helped but need ed to definately look athere and now and how to cope with depression as well.

You are brave and strong for looking over your past, it is the heardes thing you will ever do, but you are working for a good casue..YOU

Be strong and well


Liz

Written by keller, 11. Jan 2008 07:11 PM

girlie,

i know how u feel cause im in the same boat.
do u know where th paddles are cause im havin trouble findin em.

No one knows what im goin through, only my counsellor.

I once was a strong person but the weight i was carryin just got to heavy.

gettin help was hard but tellin people is goin to be harder

Written by duckydavo, 11. Jan 2008 08:20 PM

Girlie

My psychiatrist and my psychologist both know different things about me because they ask different questions of me about me/my past. I hate dredging up the past as it bothers me so much - alcoholic father and abuse but the kids survived and they think we are unharmed. I don't really think my parents know the damage they have done to my sister and I - for one my sister hates Queen Bee and won't even tell her why. I have an awkward relationship with Queen Bee - too dependent on her help when I should be able to cope on my own but on a dsp that is hard when there isn't enough money to pay the fortnightly mortgage and I need her help and partner's help to live day to day/week to week/month to month.

It is good you got it out and cried - a good cry helps when you are depressed as it makes to realise you are not alone in this world with this shadow over you/with you.

Go Girl and have a quiet weekend reflecting on the session and things that have happened in your life and what you want when you get well.

Go Girlie!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 11. Jan 2008 09:42 PM

Thanks so much for your comments. So nice to know you are all out there and experience similar things. I am so grateful to have the refuge of these diary entries, it is helping me alot.

Take care all

Girlie

Written by girlie, 15. Jan 2008 01:11 PM

Hey girlie,

It's tough...when you spend so much time convincing yourself and everyone else...that you're something you're not.

It's so hard when you have all these questions...like your brain is so full, the questions are popping out of your ears!...and the only answer you've really got is 'i don't know'

You know exactly what you want to be...where you want to be...and are sure that it's possible to get there...but it just feels so bloody impossible!

When you came into the chat room...and remembered me...and asked how i'd been and that you haden't seen any entries from me recently...I was touched...that someone had remembered me...thank you for being a wonderful person...i hope I can lift your spirits one day...like you did for me today...as small and silly as it probably seemed...it felt big and important to me...thank you.

Written by Deleted_User, 25. Jan 2008 03:06 PM