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Written by untouchable 9. Nov 2007 10:29 PM

Hi everyone,

Well since that post below I think I almost did have a breakdown, so I resigned. I havent worked for most of the year now, money is getting tight but I am so scared about getting a job.

anyway I have been holding everything in for so long but am frightening myself with my thoughts and actions so I want to get help. the problem is that I am very aware of what I am doing so I am worried that my Dr will think I am lying to her. any suggestions?

Several years after recovering from depression i am now scared that I am heading for a breakdown. Mostly its work. There is so much pression (middle management) If you make those below you happy those above are livid and visa versa. Its never ending and there is no help. I am constantly a scape goat and nothing I do is never enough.
I want out, but I will loose all of my benifits worth at least $10 000AUD. I have one more year until I can use them up or be paid out. But I dont think I can wait that long.
I've hardly been there this week, I wake up and just cant cope with even getting ready for work.
My stomach hurts, my ear hurts (weird), my skin is a mess, I cant sleep, am excausted but cant sit still. I always feel as though I am being watched/critizised. I only have to think of work and I get so scared and upset.
I dont know what to do anymore!

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Comments from the community:

I think that middle management is very difficult - a real juggling and balancing act. I think it is understandable that you are finding it difficult. I think it would help and empower you if you went to your gp, had a chat, and maybe some therapy - psychologist. Then you'd feel that you've got some support to help you through the challenges. Better than falling in a heap. I hope that you can get some rest on the weekend and maybe feel a bit stronger on Monday.

Love from Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 10. Nov 2007 02:23 AM

Hi

Welcome to depnet. I suggest you should get some medical advice, and maybe medication, if you haven't already done that. Go into the chat room and talk to us - that may help. If you can I think you should hang on to your job. All the very best.

Peter

Written by surfer, 10. Nov 2007 11:29 AM

Untouchable

Go and see a doctor and get a referral to a psychiatrist. You know what it's like to be on this road from previous experience and by reading this diary you know you are heading there again.

Get the help you deserve.

Go Untouchable!!!

Studying1

PS Welcome to depnet

Written by studying1, 10. Nov 2007 05:32 PM

hey studying1, did you resign? did it help?

Written by untouchable, 3. Jun 2008 08:01 PM

yes I did, I had no choice, I am a bit upset but spose I have to move onward and upward.

Written by untouchable, 7. Jun 2008 02:16 AM

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