great feeling and a slight bitch
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Written by untouchable 5. Aug 2008 01:18 PM
After years of feeling like I am thrashing around trying to find a path to take, making a lot of bad decisions and feeling terrible i finally feel as though my life has direction. Well it doesnt really, it'll be a controlled chaos. I have decided to pack up and move overseas. I will rent out my house, leave my animals with someone (sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob sob) and just go. in 2 months.
Since I have made this decision I feel as though the weight of the world has been lifted from my shoulders.
I would never say that I am over dep, but I feel that in making this decision I am far more in control of my lifes direction and emotions.
As far as dep net goes, this place has been wonderful in my journy through dep. at times i had wonderful suppot. sometimes i took comfort in reading other peoples diaries, giving support or reading what was given to them. i found the arguments refreshing (yup I am a little strange), it sucked that people were hurt but many deppies began to stand up for themselves and I hoped that carried over into real life.
i might pop in here occassionally, just to see how some people are going but perhaps because i am feeling ok at the moment i kind of want to distance myself from dep- i guess until i am strong enough to not fall back into that abyss.
thanks to you all for your wonderful supports. i hope you all make it through this hiccup in your life and can find a little sunshine.
now my bitch. Are Mel and Kochie the most arrogant irrittating people on tv!? i think so!!! grrrr she is such a little woman, ooohhh i'll listen while the man speaks, agree with him then go shopping. i could just turn it off i know. but its like a bad car crash- so bad i have to look!