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Written by winterrain 13. Dec 2007 02:09 AM

Hey all,
Still Severe depression according to deptest, no surprises there.
Whent to see Psychiatrist today - I have Borderline Personality Disorder with Depression and Anxiety disorder and an Eating Disorder. Wumph.
Good though. Better than fighting shadows. now I can plan an attack.
But had to go through all the horrid stuff that happened with my father and mother again, AGAIN again - god how many people do i have to tell this too in my 'cheerful, no really doesn't bother me' voice before it finally sinks in what this prick did to me? and then how do i deal with it?
needless to say. am having a very very bad night.
one even silly putty can't fix.
just want to cut out the bit of me that means that everyone hurts me, th unloveable bit, so i can be loveable, so i can be worthwhile.
blah, rough night and flash backs.
sorry everyone.
any suggestions on what to name my diary ?- i was thinking 'steve" then i can write to "steve" :)

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Comments from the community:

Winterrain

Steve sounds good for the diaries name.

Well that was a shocker to be told those things in one hit. It is little wonder you feel the way you do/need to hurt yourself. Hope the plan of attack includes the psychiatrist and a psychologist to work together on the BDP with depression and Anxiety disorder and an Eating Disorder.

Hun sometimes this story has to be told/retold to different psychiatrists for opinions so it is with you for ever and you have to learn the best strategies to deal with it each time you replay it to someone.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 13. Dec 2007 07:17 AM

I hate that whole 'Let's talk about everything that's f**cked up my life in an hour and then go home to dwell on everything that I hate so much about myself' thing. It really does suck. I would happily sign a piece of paper letting all my treating people talk to each other so I don't have to give my life story 8471510984697834 times. Either that or I am contemplating writing a biography with footnotes about how each event made me feel so I can give take it along to each doctor and never have to talk about this sh*t ever again. EVER. I personally think it is one of my better ideas, somehow I don't think any doctors would find it funny.

In short: that sucks, big hugs. Yes, you are right, it is better to know. It is said that once you name an evil it loses its power over you. Maybe not 100% true, but there is some merit to the idea.

Written by babz, 13. Dec 2007 03:52 PM