*misusing my diary entry to get a nightmare out of my head*
A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 29. Nov 2007 08:27 PM
MAY BE DISTURBING FOR SOME PEOPLE**********************************************
I had a horrid nightmare last night and my diary is asking me to focus on the positive so I figure nothing more positive than getting these horrid images out of my mind that have been with me all day.
________________________________________________________________________________
First of all I had a series of happy dreams about Peter, just momentary ones that had me waking up then remembering the actuality of my life and hurting me so much...
Then I had some bizarre dreams about a guy I've been seeing (lets call him F) which I can't toatlly remember but left me feeling very disturbed.
Then, my final dream was just awful...
F was going away down the coast to Queenscliff, and I went part of the way with him on a train, then got off at a stop where he was staying with a family, who I have never seen before, he then laughingly told me he wouldn't be going with me any further (i think he was meant to be) and kind of faded into the background, meanwhile I had to somehow get to Queenscliff to get to sorrento, and the only way, I was told by the father, was by bus, but I missed the first bus because I was carrying a very heavy suitcase and trying to put bathers on at the same time (don't ask my why I was naked) The bus driver saw me near the stop, shook her head and kept going, the next bus was in an hour and I spent that hour trying to plead with F to come with me and he wouldn't.
I then got to the bus stop, got on the bus and the driver was Horrid, an awful woman, who was very mean to me until I told her I was going to Sorrento to visit my sick grandmother, but then she said because it was after nightfall I had to buy tickets at the ferry 'station'.
Anyway, arrived at the ferry station and so didn't want to go on the ferry ( I hate boats) and the sea was calm one minuite and choppy the next, then I went to the ticket window to get a ticket and suddenly flashbaked to what the sea and the ticket station used to be like - the ticket booth was surrounded by a varandah and really high grass and was part of a school, and the asphelt extended out into the sea (or where there was now sea) and snakes kept climbing up onto the verandah, then I noticed that not only were there snakes, there was a horribly bloodily killed woman in the ticket booth and I had to keep a little child away from seeing it, because she was his mother.
Whew - complex - it moved on from there, flashing back to the present, where three men had taken over the ferry and only just got it bearthed at the peir, were pretending to be the real ferry operators, but I knew I wasn't safe, so I asked them about catching a train to Sorrento (yes there was a train line accross there) they told me I wouldn't want to do that, I'd be much better off coming into town with them, then catching the ferry - but I just felt so scared, under threat and so much fear - I knew something awful would happen if I didn't get away from them.
So I went into town and told them I'd meet them at a nightclub, but had to go somewhere else first, and I walked down this street towards the station into this body shop kind of place and told them I was being followed by three guys who were going to do something bad to me, then one of them showed up and I had to pretend I was just talking to friends, said something about wanting to look good so I didn't embarass them, so I wanted to get a dress, so I got away from him and made it to the train station where I was about to but a ticket, had explained three dangerous guys were following me, when suddenly they showed up again, wanted to know what I was doing at the train station when theyed told me to come with them, at one point one of the girls working there and I were lying on the ground passing messages back and forth...it kind of eneded there...
Looking at it written it doesn't seem like anything much, but it's haunted me all day, just the feeling of menace and threat and not being able to get away.
Scary.