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the ex husband..... lust, dependence, love?????????????
man it sounds just plain confusing to me...

"abusive angry ex husband, who is also my best friend (I know it's insane and confusing - we're super dependant).....

"is also still in love with me, and so angry and so guilty about not seeing his family anymore which I blame myself for.......

"I just don't know how much is love, how much is dependance, how much is lust....

"just my screwed up mental state about it all and inabiltiy to reciprocate because of past damage and just plain FEAR....

Deal with the ex hubby first and things may become clearer...

mmmmmmmmmmwwa
Gyps
xxx

Written by Deleted_User, 25. Nov 2007 01:35 PM

1. I've seen your picture on facebook and you my dear are NOT fat. Oh well, we can both be obsessive together.

2. You're right, part of your heart will always belong to Peter, but that's the thing about relationships - when they end they take a piece of your heart, but your heart will, over time, regenerate back to a whole.

3. Yeah, not knowing really does kinda suck (sorry, no words of wisdom for this one!!)

4. I don't hate you. Deep down I think you know you don't hate yourself either - you hate the way you feel, the ways you are forced to cope. I know what this feels like too.

5. Be aware that many psychs are very wary of diagnosing personality disorders - esp BPD. It took me 5 years, 4 psychologists and 5 psychiatrists to actually get the diagnosis. My current psychologist was not prepared to diagnose me, but when I got the diagnosis from my new psychiatrist he relented that he did think I had BPD. BPDs have a very bad name in the mental health sector, as we are perceived to be very manipulating and our suicidal/parasuicidal behaviours are seen as attention seeking. Many therapists won't treat BPDs as the level of commitment required to deal with all our crap can be overwhelming even for a professional. Despite all that, I felt an immense relief when I was diagnosed, because there was a name for what I was feeling and doing - something tangible, and a way that I could make people understand how I was feeling. I hope that if you are correct about your diagnosis you get the same relief.

6. Ummm, no advice so I'll just give you a hug instead ((((avril))))

You'll get there, we all will.

Written by babz, 25. Nov 2007 01:55 PM

Winterrain

You need to get rid of some of the confusion in your life and hopefully you can resolve some of the issues you have.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 25. Nov 2007 03:35 PM

Winterrain

By confusion, I meant negativity and bring in some positivity into your life. Sorry if there was confusion.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 26. Nov 2007 10:00 AM

Winterrain

Thanks for the internet site for the Beach Boy songs. Think I have found a couple of possibilities.

Thanks again.

Go Winterrain!!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 27. Nov 2007 07:07 PM