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Written by winterrain 2. Nov 2007 01:35 AM

My ex punched a hole in the bathroom door. I threw him out. I feel like shit. I also told him that if his violence and angry behaviour does not stop I'm taking the kids and moving to my ex- ex - ex boyfriend in Sydney (who the kids know and love) and he knows I'll do it too (but damn I'm terrified) at least it had him on crisis lines tonight... anyway...




Lonliness is a shroud of empty hope

Wrapping clammy fingers over your face,

round your heart,

squeezing till you turn death white.

Lonliness is the constantly empty side of the bed,

the unused pillow,

the lips unkissed,

the skin untouched that aches for just one brush....

Tears fall free,

uncluttered by logic,

just empty dark red caverns inside,

where once I hid my heart.

Pain slices, sharper than razor blades, through my brain,

clogs my breath,

and I no longer have the strength to break free.

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Comments from the community:

Winterrain

DVO time and not running away. Children have a right to see their dad.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 2. Nov 2007 03:07 PM

I tend to think that an intervention order/AVO is the way to go too, because if you go to Sydney there is nothing to stop him from following you and punching through the bathroom door there too.

Your poem is so beautifully tragic, but beautiful nonetheless.

Written by babz, 2. Nov 2007 06:14 PM