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Written by winterrain 30. Oct 2007 02:13 AM

He made me smile, made my heart sing, made me see things a different way.
He made me happy to be me, his family welcomed me as one of them and as was safe from mine.
He was, and is, the one.

Now - he makes me cry, makes every day hard to get through, makes me want to just sit and cry his name until he returns to me - but he won't.

He has given me questions and doubts and shattered my heart so completely, yet still he owns it.

My life revolves around him no matter how much I try to push away - like a whirlpool I get dragged back down again, into the depths of him.

I miss him, not all the time, but a good portion of it.

And he destroys me and I let him - even though he doesn't know he does it anymore - because he doesn't know I exist.

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Comments from the community:

Being involved with a bloke where you know for sure you come second best just isn't good for the soul Winterrain.
I hope you are on top of that situation, and realise what you are doing, and know that you can handle it, because it can be very damaging otherwise.
All the best.

Written by Deleted_User, 30. Oct 2007 07:43 AM

I have two points, you can choose which one you like more :P

1) It is great that he did all those things for you, but if you rely on someone else to make you smile, make your heart sing and make you see things in a different way then you are going to live a life empty of smiles, songs and different perspectives. External validation is a common symptom of mental illness, but you need to learn to be content within yourself. Only then will you truly be smiling and singing

2) 'There is only one man in this world that is worth your tears, and he will never make you cry'

Written by babz, 30. Oct 2007 03:03 PM

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