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A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 26. Oct 2007 05:34 AM
well, that says it all, collapsed into a little crying ball and cut and cut and cut - and it didn't hurt because my heart hurts so much, so it didn't help and I just want Peter back - I know he was wrong and bad and all of that but things were meant to be better now, he was meant to be back from overseas, I was meant to have him in my life, have his support and instead I'm in a flat he and I found together, in his suburb, with my ex getting so angry with my son for dropping and leaving behind his bike helmet he takes it away and gives it to his sister (HELLO!!!!!) and then, because my boy is so sad and frustrated and upset with his life, and he doesn't know how to deal with it, when he hits my ex (which is bad) he gets grabbed by the back of his neck and thrown over my ex's sholder and carried home like a sack. HE"S 5. He needs LOVE. We were never consistant in the 'if you don't look after something then it gets taken away for an hour, or two hours' so how does he know????? He's my little boy and he's 5 and he's crying his heart out and my ex is looking at him as though he's the most hated thing in the world, because he didn't pick up his helmet when asked....
And I can't make this better...
I want out.