Shattered - oh and dodgy psychiatrist continued
A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 24. Oct 2007 03:05 AM
Thank you ALL for your wonderful supportive replies - honestly they are all that has been keeping me going the last few days...Went and saw my psychologist today - who is an amazing woman - and told her about psychiatrist and she was in shock within the first two seconds - just the fact that he called me a 'slimy little manipulator' was enough for her, without adding the facts that he belives my fathers sexual abuse was him loving me the only way he could, anorexia is nothing but revenge and everyone is responsible for the bad stuff that happens to them, not the purpertrators - she thinks I should report him for misconduct and that it sounds like I was being groomed (in the same conversation as he sadi my father loved me the only way he knew how, he asked me about my sex life and said he should stand in for my father for a while)...It's all very messy in my head right now and I'm exhausted past exhaustion...I don't know what to do....I can't confront him, he's too scary for me now. oh and she'd had a conversation with him and exchanged letters saying that she would do the therapy and he'd be monitoring medication - not once since the first session has he mentioned medication - I just go in there for a 15 - 45 min lecture on my faults...no more, I'm over settling for things that hurt - I need caring therapy (yes motivational but not abusive)...BIG HUGS ALL