I have layers - like a cake :)
A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 12. Oct 2007 02:21 AM
Whent and saw my new Psychiatrist yesterday - he is absolutely the most different psychiatrist I have ever met - hasn't mentioned medication once yet and I've seen him 3 times...but one thing he said was very interesting - firstly he asked me the face I put on for the world,which was friendly, normal, caring - then he asked me what was beneath that and I said screwed up, horrible, awful, disgusting, damaged and then he said 'and whats below that'? I of course said - well nothing, thats who I am - and he said 'no, thats a layer too - who were you before all this crap happened - when you were 3' - and I said - with much difficulty 'loving, caring, friendly, happy ' and he said theres something else too and it hit me 'passionate'. He said that all the screwed up stuff that isn't me, thats stuff thats happened to me, I am really the bottom layer, and he could see it all. Hard to accept though - I'm quite used to being damaged and screwed up....