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Written by winterrain 8. Oct 2007 12:07 AM

what happened to who I was, was I ever happy - I can remember being happy I think, or was that just times when I felt safe?
Why did Peter do what he did the way he did it? Did he plan it? For maximum ease for himself?
Why is it so hard when all I want is someone to hold me and tell me everything will be alright and they'll love me, and they actually do.
Why is my little sweet hearted boy so angry, so abusive, so sad?
I want out - I don't know what to do - I don't want to be me, because all the bad stuff happened to me. I want to run away.

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Comments from the community:

Hey,

i know the feeling of wanting to run away. You feel as if you don't want to be you - but even if you can't feel it at the moment - you are the best friend and the most precious treasure you have. You are ok. There's nothing wrong with you. You're perfect - like every other human being. One day you will be happy again.

Love & hugs
Luise.

Written by Luise, 8. Oct 2007 06:41 AM