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Written by winterrain 5. Oct 2007 12:32 AM

Don't think about Peter, then your throat won't feel like its closing up and the tears won't come.
Don't even look at your Uni books because then you'll just see how much you aren't doing.
Don't think about how angry their dad gets with your kids because then you won't want to cry and cry and beg him to just stop.
Don't think about sleep becuase with sleep comes nightmares.
Don't think about yourself and the horrible, bloated ghastly horrid person you are.
Don't think about cutting for obvious reasons.
Don't think about how many fat grams you ate today because then you won't think about how much exercise you need to do to burn them off.
Don't think about going to bed and lying alone in the dark.
Don't think about your heart shattered into splinters.
Just don't think.
So I think about it all anyway

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Comments from the community:

Well if it makes you feel better we can not look at our uni books, not think about sleep, not think about how horrible we are, not think about cutting and not think about going to bed together. I'm especially good at the not looking at uni books part...

Written by babz, 5. Oct 2007 12:56 AM

Also, I am soooooo sorry about the books (or lack thereof), I feel horrible, it's the last thing you needed!

Written by babz, 5. Oct 2007 12:56 AM

Sounds like depression to me. So many worries, so litle time. I work, but I wake at 2 am, and I think, then I make toast, maybe, but mostly I say to my brain..sleep time now..think about this tomorrow. It is all I know how to do....damn depression.
All the best always.

Written by Deleted_User, 5. Oct 2007 01:09 AM

dont think about dishes piling up in sink...

Written by Deleted_User, 5. Oct 2007 04:05 AM

oh shit thats right there are no more in the cupboard!!!!!
hahahahahahahahahaha

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Written by Deleted_User, 5. Oct 2007 04:05 AM

Winterrain

I'm with Ayla - depression and see your treating therapist for the necessary meds you might need.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 5. Oct 2007 06:22 PM