So not over
A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 3. Oct 2007 05:28 PM
Hi all and big hugs to all - everyone seems to be going through a rough patch (understatement).
I realised whats wrong...why I can't stp crying, why I feel so hollow - It's twofold - firstly my psychologist told me I had to choose between my family and study as I'm failing at both, and the depressing thing is I'd choose study because then when I screw up I only hurt me, and because I honestly believe i suck as a mother and they'd be better off with less time with me.
The other reason is I'm not over Peter - I'm not in love with him anymore, but my heart is still shattered by him and I don't know how to get beyond that or through it...this combined with the fact that I can't even make a simple phone call to a psychiatrist or psychologist has me really screwed...Blah