anyone else having problems with dep self test?
A page in the diary "Steve the Diary"
Written by winterrain 25. Sep 2007 02:25 AM
Because I've tried so many times n the last week to take it and just end up with "runtime error"
I feel like there is a great ragged hole inside me today. Got an emaill from Peter - which said I must hate him and how he really wants to be freinds with me but doesn't see how this is possible after what he's done - this with me saying - I forgive you - I want you to be my friend - i don't hate you, I don't hate anyone not even my abusive father...I just really, really hate me, the me thats inside that I don't let out because bad things happen to her, so I try to do all this other stuff, parenting and study and fail at it all which just makes me hate myself more...I'm just this horrid infected wound and I don't know how to heal and my psych asked me what was important to me and how horrible a person does it make me if Acting comes at the same place as my kids - its because I can do one and the other I suck at, but it makes me hate me even more....just want to curl up in someones arms and cry and there is noone there....:'(