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Am I totally pathetic?

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Written by winterrain 24. Sep 2007 03:31 AM

I just looked at my myspace page - haven't been there for ages - and found an email from a guy who I'd arranged to meet abou 4 times during the last year but kept cancelling - he was majorly pissed off, said it meant I didn't want to meet him, 'cause I wouldn't put in the effort - but my question is this - how do you tell someone you barely know - I can't come and meet you because I'm Bloody TERRIFIED of being on the train, how pathetic does that sound?
I'm just so over trying to find someone and being so lonely - deep heart aching lonely - and so scared - I don't remeber the last time I felt safe - and the lengths I'll go to to feel this way - it's all just too much.

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Comments from the community:

If it makes you feel any better, I do exactly the same thing. Except it's because of a fear of meeting new people and being judged, not a fear of trains.

No, you probably can't tell someone you barely know, but try not to let it get to you... Have a good week and stay safe honey

Written by babz, 24. Sep 2007 08:34 AM

Winterrain

I have a phobia about trains because of some actions some idiots did when I was on a train - pretended to have guns and shooting the passengers.

Be honest with him if you really want to meet him, if not then is there another way you can get to meet him.

Go Winterrain!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 24. Sep 2007 07:15 PM

yeh...it would be a bit freaky if a girl said i'm afraid of the train...i would do a runner. however, if she added on that she was seeing the doctor about it then wouldn't be a problem. I'd actually find that more attractive.

It would show me a depth & self-respect about her and that she wouldn't reject me for MY mental illness. (Not hitting on you. Telling u as a mate.) I'd be blown away at that.

Written by Cocksy_86, 25. Sep 2007 02:32 AM

Thanks honey - means a lot - in fact thanks everyone for their replies to this one :)
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Written by winterrain, 25. Sep 2007 02:45 AM

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