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Looking for that smile

A page in the diary "Jen's Ponderings"
Written by Spazny 19. Sep 2007 08:09 PM

It's been a month since I took leave from work to focus on looking after me. The intention was to engage in all the things I like doing.. problem is, 4 weeks have passed and I can't seem to find anything that really brings me joy. I've been hitting the gym each day and strolling in the sun, which usually feels good, but there has to be something else!

I've read books, but I seem to be reading for the sake of reading.
I've fallen out of love with the music I play or listen to.
I've confirmed for myself that I don't like going to the movies or watching videos.
I've found that all the people I have in my life do me more harm than good, and thus am better off without them.
I'm not into massages and day spas.
My husband irritates me more than ever...

All I want is to find my smile - the smile that is accommpanied by delightful sensations throughout my whole body!

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Comments from the community:

Spazny

You need to find something that you would like to do - drawing/painting. Do the other things as well because with depression we don't do things and end up bored and push our friends away. Know this from experience.

Go Spazny!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 19. Sep 2007 08:18 PM