Mixed Feelings
A page in the diary "AMBIVALENCE"
Written by cherry1 30. Oct 2008 01:07 PM
The last few nights I havent been sleeping well and I have had suicidal thoughts, however at the same time I am thinking about all the things I am grateful for.
It's that time of the month and I think my hormones are going rampant. PMT really not good! I lose patience, tolerance and have the most wildest mood swings and thoughts.
I have court case coming up soon so that is playing a huge part as well and Financially things are still not good. I am going to have to start work very soon. I've got to get off my Butt and seriously start looking!
Only I can change my Life and make things better and happier for my son and myself. I am procrastinating the inevitable...dont you just hate that!...lol!
The weather is warming up and I found a lovely spot at the beach for bubs and I. I havent taken him there yet but I will very soon. It will be very interesting to see how he reacts to sand and sea water...lol!
Take Care all
Haveagoodday