Dear Diary
A page in the diary "AMBIVALENCE"
Written by cherry1 14. Aug 2008 03:20 PM
Dear Diary,
I have an appt in the next hour to see a Social Worker. Hopefully she will be able to help me. I didnt think a year ago I was suffering with Post-Natal Dep, but I think right now, that I am.
I have had a few really bad Panic Attacks that have lasted upto a week off and on. It has not been pleasant to say the least.
I am often thinking WHEN am I going to Recover and be the person I was before all the Trauma started. I am reaching out and using every resource that is available to me in order to Recover.
I really Want to Recover and be content in my life and to see a happy future ahead of me. I have a few goals.
1. To put all my energy into making things better for myself in my life.
2. Next year to Study part time...if and when I have got my head together.
3. To heal any relationships in my life that have been affected by my Dilemma.
I know I have to take One Day At A Time, hey one Moment at a time is good for me. I have also let go of some relationships that I know wont, at this point in time be helpful and/or satisfactory.
My Life got out of Control and now I am in the process of getting it back in Control. Having Power and control over me... not others. Learning to stop being a "Mrs Fix the Prob" for others.
I have had to learn the hard way Im afraid, but I think Im slowly getting there. Easy Does it. Will finish the rest of Diary when Ive been to appt.