untouchable
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Written by zombieluv 5. Dec 2007 01:44 AM
finally im feeling better. the whole food poisoning fiasco was so full on. i didnt eat for four days. but somehow i managed to get everything done. i havent stopped doing housework. its been crazy.
the rabbit had more babies. nine of them. one died, accidentally got strangled by some cotton that was in the nest. i felt really guilty, but i didnt really look through the nest cos i didnt want to stress the mum out. then there was another one, a runt, that somehow missed out on the first two or three feeds, and consequently wasnt doing so well. i named it charlie. i took charlie from the nest and got him a bottle and formula and electrolytes, i spent two days, countless hours, very little sleep, so much time i put into saving that rabbit. i really just wanted it to survive. i knew it would die, i knew something was wrong, but still i wanted to do all i could. i dont even know why? like its a baby rabbit, they are pests, the government invests millions in eradicating them and seems to have no qualms about the horrificly inhumane way in which they do so. rabbits cause immense destruction and attribute to the deaths of so many native animals. but i cant hold all of that against a tiny baby animal. i cant hold one animal life responsible for something that is ultimately the stupid fault of human beings. the whole thing has exhausted me emotionally. i am way too emotional about my pets.
i finally saw my dr today. its taken six months to get an appointment. he is only open 2 days a week, and always goes on holiday. fuck its annoying. anyway, i got a script for another six months so im right now. i think he is my favourite gp ever, except for one thing, his wife is the receptionist, i think shes a nurse too, but he obvioulsy tells her everything, cos she asked me how i was and if i was taking medication, and i thought that was kind of strange. i dont think hes really supposed to discuss any of my personal problems even if it is his wife, i dont see why she'd really give a shit or need to know. its just uncomfortable.
anyway, i dont know. i have to get up in a few hours, so, yeah.