my father never meant to leave me this
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Written by zombieluv 17. Oct 2007 06:37 PM
we have these pet rabbits, up until last night they were the best of friends. all of a sudden they have turned on eachother and almost killed eachother. one of them had to go to the vet just now. i wonder why that happened.
i went to the genetic counsellor. i even took half a valium before i went so id be calm. in the waiting room i started to have a panic attack haha. i was freaking out because i didn't want to burst out crying and have her think it was because of this test. i could tell the second she looked at me. unfortunately its not good news, she says. ok. my anxiety dissipated for some reason. i can deal. its not a big deal.
she's really nice. i like her a lot. i wish she was a gp.
so maybe it's slightly worrying. but im only 22, i dont need to worry about it for another eight years. but im glad i found out. i found out because i think of all the women who could have had it better if they'd known about it. i feel like i owe it to them to take advantage of this predictive testing.
so basically, this gene is very strong in my family, my fathers side. the women who have it, have cancer. my uncle who is an oncologist says theres no buts about it, the gene means cancer. i just hope im not too young. then again, i could die in a car accident tomorrow and all this worry would be for nothing. im sure in a week it wont even be on my mind.
so im not sure how i feel today.
in ottawa the other night, at a bruce springsteen concert, win & regine from arcade fire sang 'state trooper' with him. my two favourite artists doing on of my favourite songs. i highly reccomend watching the video.