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Written by zombieluv 20. Jul 2007 07:22 PM
feeling crap lately. not sure why. i think maybe ive fully adjusted to the zoloft and might need to up the dosage just a bit. i cant get the motivation to do anything. ive spent the last week in bed. today i forced myself to clean the fridge and pantry out, that was about four hours ago i started, and im still not finished. it wasnt even that messy.
i have no idea what to do with myself. its not like im tired, i get heaps of sleep, but i just dont know where to start with things or how to muster up the energy. yeah im feeling depression right now.
i think maybe my body is still recovering from my four week long drinking binge. i cant stand the thought of alcohol any more. yuck.
i dont feel hungry, but i want to eat. but then i dont. same with thirst. i dont feel tired, but i want to go to bed, then i dont. i want to talk to someone, so i go to call a friend, then i dont feel like talking to them. i want to do something productive but i cant. i just sit here and stare into space. thinking. i want to watch a movie, so i put one on, then im sick of it after 3 minutes. ive never felt this restless in my life. i feel like i really want something, but i have no clue what it is. maybe ill go have a shower. i think it might just be heartbreak.
i need to get over this. its just a plateau. in a few days ill feel energised.