friday
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Written by zombieluv 4. Jul 2008 11:51 AM
so im sitting here balling my eyes out. like i have been for the last three days.
the more i read about add, the more all the missing pieces start to come together, the more hope i feel, the more i realise im not the problem.
i dont think add is real. but i do believe that some people have these atention problems that affect their lives to the point of disablement almost. only not in a personal sense. incapable of following the rules and regulations of the 'normal' world therefore there must be a name or disorder for it. but if you were going to talk medically and unimaginatively and prejudice then yes i have add.
i have learnt that our brains are all so different, we all function so differently, yet we are pressured and forced into doing things a certain way. of course there will be some of us who can't cope, who do not operate the way society expects. and it may only be subtle differences but as whoever reads this may know, these differences in the way we operate become huge problems and we direct the blame inward, telling ourselves we are no good and feeling shame for it. and shame overtakes everything.
every mind has something to offer, we have tolerance for diversity of appearance, it's time to embrace diversity of the mind, they all matter, most even have evolutionary purpose. even through depressive episodes i always kept it in the back of my mind that this is not something everyone gets to feel, this is an opportunity to experience another piece of the human puzzle.
well maybe all that was a load of crap but i have stopped crying and feel relaxed so yay. or maybe the dex just kicked in.