So much for my happy ending
A page in the diary "One instant at a time"
Written by psyche 11. Jul 2007 10:15 PM
Once upon a time there was a very damaged girl called Avril and she met a boy called Michael and they got married when they were 20, then Avril had a baby, then another one when she was 23. But Avril and Michael never really got on, he was a very angry and lost boy who blamed Avril for all the problems in his life. One day Avril woke up and realised she didn't want to be hurt any more and ended the relationship but couldn't leave the flat they shared because she didn't want to be away from her children at all, because of how guilty Michael made her feel and because she had no money. She then met a boy called Robbie and they went out for six months - he was a sweet boy, but 4 years younger than her, and also very angry and didn't seem to care how much he hurt her, so Avril decided just to be friends with him, meanwhile at home Michael was going insane, mentally abusive and raped Avril. But she kept living there, tied to him by guilt and loss and pain.
Then, when she was 28 she met a wonderful man called Peter, who accepted her for her, who loved her and never hurt her, and they were so happy until Avril started to push him away, to test the limits of his love, to make his life a nightmare, but still he loved her, until he just couldn't cope anymore and at the start of 2007 he broke up with her and broke her heart. But they only spent two weeks without seeing each other - they were too drawn together - so they began to be friends, Peter said he loved her more than anyone he had ever known, but he had to travel, wanted to see more of the world, so they both knew that he would be leaving her in June for three months. They started as Friends and it progressed to something more but not yet a relationship as neither of them were ready. Avril needed to heal and learn to be herself again and move away from Michael (which she did a month ago ), and Peter wanted to travel and wouldn't be in a relationship until he came back - but he left with the promise that they would pick up where they left the relationship when whent away, and they would try being them again, and he believed it would work. So he left, with Avrils heart in his hands and this is where we are now....My one is away for three months, three months of insecurity and self doubt - that he will find someone else, because when people leave me they forget me, But he loves me, is falling back in love with me (he says) and misses me, wants to be with me. Me.
So thats my story about Peter - or a basic outline anyway. ((((everyone))))