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Written by psyche 8. Jul 2007 12:12 AM

Why is it so hard to trust?
I had a meeting with my case worker from family first - plan is to try and get my confidence up in my parenting skills so I can spend the kind of time I want to spend with my kids and also to link me into the community so I have some friends around (a total of offline friends currently - NONE) and she was excellent.
We talked a lot about my past history and how screwed up my upbringing was, how no one ever heard me, no one cared, I had to parent, and she thinks that this is where all my depression and anxiety comes from, because i never learned all the grown up coping stuff. And I couldn't trust my parents, and then my ex husband, plus all boyfriends in between so now how do I get my trust back so I can just BELIEVE in Peter - he is honerable, will stand by his word and yet I can't trust - it's INSANE - any advice, anyone?
Also I'm going to very slowly come off my medication (only on 75mg efexor)(oh and valium maintenance dose) just so I can see who I am without it. Is this a really bad idea?
Hope all have had a ok saturday
(((((all))))

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Comments from the community:

'Is this a really bad idea?'
YES!!!!!!!!!!
Pleeease don't go off your meds unless your doctor has told you too - its not worth it.

Written by babz, 8. Jul 2007 12:37 AM

Hey Psyche
I totally agree with Babz! It is SO not worth it!
I went off my meds (gradually) a couple of years ago, thinking I could go the "Natural Way" (St Johns wort and aromatherapy, etc.) I actually thought that I was ok and didn't need medication. Not taking my meds turned me into a basket case! I was SO miserable, confused, angry and suicidal. I have to accept now that I may be on meds for the rest of my life. Please get your GPs opinion before you do anything.
I hope all goes well for you.
Cheers
Cheyne

Written by hippiechick, 8. Jul 2007 12:47 AM

Hi guys - thanks - I'll wait till I have gp's oppinion - I'm coming off horrid valium though - gp has ok'd that - I've been on it for over a year. Thanks again. BIG HUGS

Written by psyche, 8. Jul 2007 01:45 AM

Dear Psyche

I do believe that it is possible to recover from depression etc.

However, I believe this can only be done by consciously changing one's self from the inside - ie. assessing one's values/beliefs/thinking patterns/perceptions etc. of one's self - and the rest of the world.

These changes are life-changing - and I believe they need to be done through CBT - which is a methodical approach to learning to rationalise one's thoughts/perceptions/beliefs.

From my own experience with depression, and also interacting with others with depression - I don't believe that people should go off their meds until they have consciously changed and recovered - ie literally thought their way into mental health. I think when one undergoes these massive transformations, one becomes very confident of it from within, and feels self-assured and comfortable and confident with any decisions to soar into a future without medications - as a healthy, well human-being with a lifetime of possibilities ahead.

I believe that going off meds before one has healed oneself is setting oneself up for relapse/failure - which just serves to deepen the depression and make recovery ultimately harder in the long run.

Personally, I think you should stay on the meds for the meantime.

Written by Wolveress, 8. Jul 2007 12:55 PM

Psyche

Stop the meds with the doctors approval - not because you feel the need to stop them.

Go Psyche!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 8. Jul 2007 10:46 PM

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