So so lonely
A page in the diary "One instant at a time"
Written by psyche 31. May 2007 01:17 AM
my life consists of being in bed, attempting to pick up my kids from school twice a week, seeing my psychologist once a week and doing yoga twice a week (at home), All because I'm so bloody scared and tired and lost and lonely.
I found out i got a new flat today which means I can move away from my abusive ex husband and get my kids out of this awful situation, but then what do I do?
On top of that the man I love, who has my heart, leaves in 18 days for 3 months overseas with the promise that he's falling back in love with me and he'll give us another go when he gets back ( He couldn't cope with my extreme depressive episodes and messy life which is why he broke up with me - also something about needing to be free to travel) But I of course think he will meet someone else, because I'm so unworthy, so totally unworthy. And then i get a tip today saying that clinical depression should get better in a few weeks - i've been on medication Efexor XR for 4 1/2 years - not better, still just as terrified/anxious, still just as tired and incapable of doing anything, still just as sad, so do I try a new medication? will that make me better? I'm so scared and lonely.